Have you ever had one of those days where you feel ugly, fat, no amount of exercise and eating well is getting you the results you want to see? I had one yesterday. Not fun. I exercise 4-6 days a week. I am currently running 15-25 miles a week. I eat well, occasionally have a beer or some wine; I love food so I will eat pizza, cheese, french fries…but for the majority of the time I consider food as fuel and I want/need the proper fuel for my body so that is what I give it.
So why am I not seeing the results I want? Or faster? I want my arms so tone that you can see the muscle without me flexing, I want the fat on my hips gone and my inner thighs, I want a flat tummy. I feel like I’m “skinny fat”. I am not fat, but I do have fat on me that I want gone! These are all the things I was complaining to my boyfriend about after skipping out on our workout last night – which I also was upset about – I just didn’t feel like working out. Why? I love working out, it always makes me feel good…now I’m feeling guilty for not wanting to!
Then he pointed out to me:
I’ve lost 15 lbs in the last 7 months
I am stronger than he is (based on our workouts – I can keep going when he is tired)
I have dedication to continue to work out and get in shape
I am pursuing my personal trainer certification
Then I realized:
I woke up at 5:40 this morning – I never get up that early. I did to get my work out in because I knew in the evening I wouldn’t have time. Also, all my splits were under 9 minutes. Last lap 8:06 mile? Hell yea, That is good for me!
Still, I was unhappy about my results and my choices that day. I have a tendancy to worry about things, think & over analyzie and focus on all the negatives even though they are far outweighed by positive things. I have a million thoughts always going through my head; I feel like I need to be doing something at all times. It can be exausting being me in my head! My boyfriend said something else that really made me stop and think: We are in our 20’s (well, I’m 29 and that is almost 30 and of course I had to point that out & of course he had to say “that is still in the 20’s”) we have the rest of our lives to work out, get in shape, enjoy everything while we’re doing it and just enyoy our lives, that’s what I think it’s all about.
Maybe I don’t take time to enjoy everything while it’s happening. I’m too busy with what I am doing and focusing on what to do next that I don’t focus on being happy. Not that I am unhappy, but sometimes he has to remind me of my accomplishments and goals I am setting for myself and I should be proud of what I’ve done. I went from no running to running multiple half marathons, 5 & 10k’s, and marathons all in less than 2 years. Friends and strangers (thanks to my blog!) have told me what an inspiration I am and that makes me feel great! I am now doing even more with that and am on my way to becoming a personal trainer. I know he is right when he says I am too hard on myself and don’t give myself enough credit. I just want things to be/go perfectly 100% of the time. Is that too much to ask? 😉
He is the best ❤
I f-ing love him!