This is going to be a venting post. You can stop reading now if you want to. Do you ever wish you had no responsibilities? Life was so simple as a kid. No work, bills, commitments…it was all so simple. I get so overwhelmed thinking about all I have to do.
Can I be more of a complainer? The above was how I started this post. Then, thinking about what I was going to say, I began to get embarrassed. Even ashamed. I was going to talk about how busy I am and how stressed I am getting with all my commitments. Then I thought, “You are lucky to have commitments” “You are lucky to be doing what you love to do” “There are people in the world with real problems, stop complaining”. You know what, that made me feel better about my situation. I mean yea, I am still very busy and a little stressed, but it’s nothing I can’t handle.
I recently started my internship to become a fitness coach. I am so excited! It gives me another reason to study hard with all my NASM stuff, pass my test & become a certified trainer.
I am still doing very well with my CIM training. I am faster and stronger than ever! Check out my short run from last night:
I think a lot of my stress is coming from this weekend. I have to work overtime on Saturday, once I’m off I’m going to a friend’s wine party (poor me, I know). I haven’t seen these friends in a while & miss them so I already feel guilty about that & instead of studying I’m gonna be drinking wine – which also makes me feel guilty. On Sunday I have my internship starting at 8:30am. Then Sunday afternoon I have to run 18 miles for my CIM training, after my run I need to try to get in some study time. Monday I need to dedicate all to studying, & strength training, oh and my internship. All of this are things I have chosen to do and want to do, but it still can be a lot to handle at times.
Now that I think about it, I’m sure a lot of my stress comes from studying for my personal trainer certification as well. I have 6 months to study and take the test, its been about 2 1/2 months so far. If you think about it 6 months is not a long time. Then the stress of taking that test & what if I don’t pass? I’d feel like I am letting myself down and the company I am doing in internship with as well.
I just need to take it one thing at a time – wise words from my boyfriend. We balance each other out quite well…or I guess I should say he keeps me from drowning in my worries 🙂
But no matter what…
More wise words, but this time from my uncle. He was a quadriplegic for the last 6 years of his life. When asked how he was doing his answer would be “I’ll be alright”. I still can’t get over that. If he can stay strong through those 6 years (of what I would consider hell) I can be strong through anything too. I got his quote tattooed on my arm to remind me of that. I’ll be alright – in my training, in my races and in my life. Thanks uncle Mando.